At least I'm not alone. Sometimes.

Ok so. After months of waiting, Scott finally told me he's coming back! Yay! And then a couple days ago, he told me he was getting cold feet. Not yay... so I tried to figure out a way that I could pay for the school he wants to go to. Because that way, he could come out right away, instead of not at all, or instead of looking for a comparable school in Georgia and going there before coming back to California. So I figured out a great plan that was honestly going to work. And then the next day (which was today), my work hours got cut in half.

Sucker punch....

So I really do think that Scott will come out, I think he was just being his usual doubting self. But it's stressing me out. And I'm really upset that I can't pay for his school now, because that was something I really wanted to do for him to show him that I don't think it's all about me. So now I'm on my emotional roller coaster again. I'd like to get off soon... heh.

Anyway! My honorary niece (hereafter referred to as "niece" or Lexi or Lex or Alexa) is doing wonderful, of course. She's the most beautiful baby girl in the world (until I have a daughter, obviously), and I love to spend time with her. I think she might be starting to recognize me, I don't know... but I can make her smile a LOT. And I also made her laugh the other day.

My friend Melanee is getting married on January 3rd, and I'm one of her bridesmaids. We went dress shopping for her last Saturday, and Rae came. It was really a lot of fun, and her dress is absolutely gorgeous. I mean, it's Melanee, so everything looked good on her. But she looked amazing! Her dress cost like, twice as much as mine though. Hahaha.

Ok so... I just have one thing to ask. Anyone who reads this, please do this for me. I'm begging you, from the bottom of my heart. Pray to God, whenever you get a spare chance, when you're doing your regular prayers, whenever you may think about it... pray that Scott will come back. I know I try to put on a facade, and I act like I'm strong, or at least aloof most of the time. But really, it's eating me up inside to think that he might not come back. It's really excruciating, actually. And I've been on the verge of tears for a few days now. I know that God's will will always be done regardless. But nothing is more powerful than the prayers of the righteous, so please.... even if you're a person I don't even know, and you happen to read this, please pray that Scott will come back. I love him with all my heart, and I just need him here with me.

Please, Lord.